The last time I cried

I cannot keep the pain inside,
I cannot remember the last time I cried.
Every day gets a little bit harder,
To push the pain in just a little bit farther.

I’ve no control of destiny,
Don’t know what else is in store for me.
I’ve lost all concentration,
I’m walking blind to my next destination.

But I’ll go where no-one else will go,
Because I know, what no-one else knows.
A childhood secret, it’s burning me up inside,
And I still can’t remember, the last time I cried.

I wish I could change, what has already been,
And escape reality, to the land of my dreams.
But that won’t help, it’s too late now,
So I’ll keep pushing in the pain somehow.

Broken glass, in fear of the night,
Alone in my room, terrified with fright.
Lost in the darkness, trying to find a place to hide,
I guess that must have been, the last time I cried